I UNDERSTAND THIS IS FOR ME, YOU WONT READ IT, NOR WOULD YOU WANT TO, KNOWING YOUR BABYGIRL BEST FRIEND, IS HURTING.  I COULD HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD THE PAIN, YOU HAD WHEN MOTHER DIED.  NOW, I CAN UNDERSTAND A LITTLE.  MOM COME MONDAY @7:13, IT WOULD BE 2 YEARS SINCE YOU SPOKE TO ME.  THE PAIN SEEMS SO MUCH UNBEARABLE .  FUNNY, THE OTHER DAY I EMBRACED, THAT I PICKED UP THE PHONE TO CALL AND TELL YOU DADDY AND YOURSELF HAD PASSED.   MAYBE ITS GOOD, BECAUSE MAYBE REALITY IS SEEKING IN.  EVERYTIME I THINK IM ADJUSTING,  UNKOWING TO MYSELF I FEEL MYSELF, GOING BACK TO APLACE OF NOT UNDERSTANDING.   I MISS MY FRIEND.  KNOW ONE, KNOW ONE, UNDERSTANDS ME,  THE LAUGHTER WHEN ITS NOT FUNNY OR INAPPROPRIATE TO EVERYONE ELSE, WE CANT CONTTROL OURSELVES.  OH AND I MISS GETTING MY DADDY UPSET UNTIL HE SAYS "GIRRRL YOU BETTER LEAVE ME ALONE.    "I'M LIKE A DUCK AND I DONT GIVE A  (BLANK)"  THE  BEST DADDY THAT I NEVER KNEW THE WORDS WOULD BE SO TRUE>        "THE EMOTION OF THE MIND CONSIST OF MANY THOUGHTS"JUST LEFT ME TO CLOSE TOGETHER,  AUGUST/OCTOBER 2013, WOW,I MISS YOU MOMMY AND DADDY, SO MUCH THERES SOMETHING I CANT EXPLAIN.    IM SEEKING THE HOLY SPIRIT, FOR HE IS THE ONE WHO COMFORTS THE SOUL.       I LOVE YOU, PEOPLE SAY THEY WOULDNT WANT TO BE HERE.  BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I WOULDNT WANT YOU 2HERE.   DOES NOT MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY.  IM TRYING,  I WANT TO TALK TO MY MOM AND DADDY